#mamamoment w/ Rachel Celis

"No one in the world could prepare you enough for Motherhood. From the moment that you find out you're pregnant, your entire life changes almost instantly. Every decision you make from that moment forward, is made around the precious little life that is forming inside of you. This self-less love only grows deeper and deeper, and it is what fuels you on the hard days. 

There are three prominent moments in my life that I will always hold onto. The moment I found out I was pregnant, the moment that I pushed out my beautiful son and held him in my arms for the first time and lastly, the moment I was wheeled out of the hospital and back into the world as a Mother. The greatest of these three ,without a doubt, was when I left the hospital with my son in my arms. I was so emotional, so overwhelmed, so tired, so incredibly in love, so scared. Here I was - so happy and so lost all at the same time. I lost it and could barely talk through the tears. I was 100% responsible for his survival and was so grateful to God for the opportunity. He was perfect and completely healthy, what more could I ever ask for? 

The first month of my son's life was the hardest of mine. I was so discouraged as a new Mother and so sleep-deprived to top it off. The hormones, the emotions, adjusting to "my new life," none of it was easy for me. I was alone a lot and learning by the second how to care for a child. It was rough. 

By 6 months, the rough patch had become a dark memory and my son became an absolute joy. It felt like each day I was slowly grasping this whole "Motherhood" thing, gaining confidence, speaking that mother-baby language where I could read him and know. With each milestone my heart beams with pride. He is my greatest accomplishment, my most precious gift. I have learned that hard days only make you stronger (as cliche as it sounds), and that our lives weren't meant to be lived for ourselves, but for others. He gave my life purpose. I wake in the morning and live each day for my son. He is my number one and my needs will forever come second. In those moments where I am challenged as a Mother, I am reminded that he won't always be a baby who needs me. He's going to grow up one day and be a man with a family of his own, and I will miss the days when all he wanted was my arms.

I have so many moments where I stop and stare at my son. I smile and sob at the same time just watching all his little gestures. His curious eyes that see everything. Man, the love is so powerful and so permanent. I really thought I knew what love was, but I didn't know a thing until I became a Mother."